“She needed a hero, so that’s what she became”

Well, I haven’t posted in awhile because some things have been going on.
I’ll start in June…we had our second transfer on June 23rd and a e decided to transfer two embryos again this time. I was so excited but really scared because of the miscarriages a few months prior. For the next 16 days I took it easy and rested as much as possible. In early July we found out we were pregnant with one strong little baby! Because we did IVF, it was very early but we were still able to see and hear the little heartbeat. I was so excited but still very scared. My hopes were so high last time with the twins that I didn’t want to do that again with this one. Every week I would go in for a routine ultrasound and bloodwork to make sure all was good. Around week 7 the nurses found that I had a subchorionic hematoma. The doctor said this will cause me to bleed during my pregnancy and I was NOT excited about that. It was scary and made me even more worried than I already was! A few weeks later and the baby is getting bigger which is forcing the hematoma to get smaller so that is excellent news!! It’s amazing to see this little miracle on the screen and hear it’s strong heartbeat. I’m so in love with him/her already!!
Now that brings me to this last week. A lot has gone on (as if I haven’t been through enough already) and it has turned my world upside down. I have had a lot of people contact me wondering what was going on and while I am not shy about explaining it when someone asks, I do not want to dwell on it here. All I can say is that I will be experiencing this pregnancy and raising this sweet baby by myself. This news has really torn me apart as a human. This is not what I had planned nor did I have any idea that this was coming. This is suppose to be the happiest time in my life and even though I am so excited to bring my baby into this world, I am heartbroken for where my relationship is headed. I am confident that I will be the best mom I can be to this innocent little baby and it will be my one true love.
I appreciate everyone’s thoughts and prayers during this time for me and my baby. I am looking forward to sharing the rest of this pregnancy with y’all!


5 thoughts on ““She needed a hero, so that’s what she became”

  1. My dear sweet one,
    I am so sorry to hear this news. You couldn’t be in a better place than at your sisters house. They are such a loving family and will take good care of you. Ok so now it is my turn to drive and come see you all. A week from tomorrow I will be driving my self to chorus so how about I come early and come see you all?
    Be strong sweetheart. I will text you to see if we are on for Monday (a week from tomorrow) also I will need directions however my phone will get me there.
    Love you so much!
    Bobbie and Bill too

  2. Randi, I know none of this is how you could ever imagine, but you’re strength, courage, beauty, and faith gives you to power and tools to conquer this gracefully! I am praying for you and this sweet, precious baby that God so wants you to have He knows how perfect you two will be together!

  3. Randi, I can’t imagine the pain you must feel. I am so inspired by your faith and positivity and know you will be the best mother to this baby. God’s not done and I’m praying he blesses your socks off!

  4. Hi Randi, I am so overwhelming happy about your baby news! You will be such a great mother. I am happy to give you any suggestions or advice if you need any (although I’m still learning so much myself… every single hour). Being a mom is a joy and I’m glad God is growing a sweet little one in your stomach right now. I am so sad to hear about the other news, but know there is a silver lining in everything and you will be supported by so many people around you who will love you both so much. xo

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