“She needed a hero, so that’s what she became”

Well, I haven’t posted in awhile because some things have been going on.
I’ll start in June…we had our second transfer on June 23rd and a e decided to transfer two embryos again this time. I was so excited but really scared because of the miscarriages a few months prior. For the next 16 days I took it easy and rested as much as possible. In early July we found out we were pregnant with one strong little baby! Because we did IVF, it was very early but we were still able to see and hear the little heartbeat. I was so excited but still very scared. My hopes were so high last time with the twins that I didn’t want to do that again with this one. Every week I would go in for a routine ultrasound and bloodwork to make sure all was good. Around week 7 the nurses found that I had a subchorionic hematoma. The doctor said this will cause me to bleed during my pregnancy and I was NOT excited about that. It was scary and made me even more worried than I already was! A few weeks later and the baby is getting bigger which is forcing the hematoma to get smaller so that is excellent news!! It’s amazing to see this little miracle on the screen and hear it’s strong heartbeat. I’m so in love with him/her already!!
Now that brings me to this last week. A lot has gone on (as if I haven’t been through enough already) and it has turned my world upside down. I have had a lot of people contact me wondering what was going on and while I am not shy about explaining it when someone asks, I do not want to dwell on it here. All I can say is that I will be experiencing this pregnancy and raising this sweet baby by myself. This news has really torn me apart as a human. This is not what I had planned nor did I have any idea that this was coming. This is suppose to be the happiest time in my life and even though I am so excited to bring my baby into this world, I am heartbroken for where my relationship is headed. I am confident that I will be the best mom I can be to this innocent little baby and it will be my one true love.
I appreciate everyone’s thoughts and prayers during this time for me and my baby. I am looking forward to sharing the rest of this pregnancy with y’all!